Not me.

Hey now, I'm just not in the mood to write stuff in Bulgarian, so I hope you'll understand. Really. As for my exam, it's in two days. And it sucks. And everything sucks.Again.
I hope you are happy. I will be. Just for you and just in a few days, when everything will become normal again. Or I hope that it will be normal, because "normal" isn't a very normal word at all, soo.... I don't care. I won't care. And it doesn't matter.
Again, I found out something new about me. And it's an old-new something about me, and not only me, because it involves him.

I love you, I still do.
I need you, it is true.
'Cause me and you,
It's no real point of view.

I said this. Endlich, as i often say, which means "in the end". It's the last time I said it. I know that.
I said it. And I said it just because I know that it's the end. And, I'm breathing, if you're interested. And you aren't. And I care. yes, I care. But you aren't interested, just like I am not interested in going out with Chris at this moment. but with you this situation is permanent.

"I love you". I said this again. There's teras that want to flow, but they won't. Beacuse I won't let them do this. Because my discovery doesn't meen anything. It doen't change anything.

I still can't face him again. I still don't have the strength to confess that I was wrong all the time and that the hope is gone. I remember what i said just an year ago.. the difference is two days or so... I said that I hope that you'll find someone, who will be able to break your heart. You said that it didn't exist at all, I didn't believe you.

You proved this today. Only someone who has a heart and who is good can love. I have always knowm you can. But it's not me... not me... not me... not me....
It's over. I hope you'll be happy now.